when once upon a time was just a once upon a time

once upon a time

when i was a little younger i like to read love stories which the main characters are friends or best friends. para kasing ang saya na you will fell in love with someone who knows you really well. and i find myself wishing sometimes, if only if, i can find my own best friend which can turn out into my true to life prince charming even though i know it's quite impossible. then one day.. i met this one person that i'm really comfortable with.. someone whom can make me laugh the hardest, whom i can be just stupid as i really am. someone who turns out to be my almost bestfriend. and so it happened.. the one i wish once upon a time.. and then i fell in love with a friend but unlike to the stories i've read before it doesn't turned out the way i've wished it to be.. i screw up the friendship and no matter how hard i try to bring it all back the way it was before it really can't be and the prince i've wished before was belong to someone else's story.



when the fairy tale was ended

i'm not really a mellow dramatic person.. but god i'm hurting.. i really am.. i want to cry maybe after crying hard and as tears run dry maybe the hurt will be gone as well. but how can you forget the person you love like almost forever? i read from ava's blog that when you delete the text message from the past, it can really help you removed a great burden. but how can i do that when those things are really the one who kept me going everyday? the one which reminds me that in one point of my life i almost met the one i've wished for once upon a time. but i know that one of this days i have to do it.. i have to stop hoping, i have to stop crying and i have to forget him.. maybe by doing that i will be able to wish for another fairy tale and maybe this time i will not be the wicked witch in the eyes of my prince charming.

New Years Break Over

all's well that ends well and my new year's break as well.. but the previous year brought a lot of adventures and misadventures too.

there goes the ever tiring job hunting. the nerve wrecking interviews, being a probinsyana who wakes up at 6am at sunday! being in and out of job, the resignation letter, the AWOL, the short live 'love affair' and realizing that i'm still in love with the one who gets away. getting the first pay check , meeting a lot of people and being friends with them. finding a new job, being a manilenia once again, mingling with friends and having clash with them then missing them once again, meeting the old college buddies and realizing that things aren't the same when we're still students and wishing that we're student's once more. missing my family, crying because of harry potter, hating someone then loving them once again, shopping!, coffee break which turns out to be the our favorite pastime and tambayan. watching your friends cry that you wanted to cry with them also. eating in fancy restaurants, being awake all night, being annoyed with your friends then missing them once more, watching movies alone, laughing out loud, annoying your boss, being late, never ending kwentuhan with ava, tinliit & tin laki, paying your own bills, being depressed then feeling high as well, most of all loving the life you have and feeling good whatever things may come your way.

last year made me realized that things changed as you allowed them to. and that thought me that you must be responsible with every action you make. nevertheless have fun.. life is short make the most of it.

Series of Unfortunate Events

Bakit kaya hindi na holiday ng December 26? At bakit kaya my pasok n nmn ako at kelangan ko ng bumalik ulit ng Manila? At bakit kaya umuulan?

That’s all started my series of unfortunate events.

I need to go back to manila ulet dahil nga my pasok so I need an urgent manicure which was the reason why I am late ng 1.5 hours sa opis, dahil hinintay ko pa ung manicurista na nglalaba ng sangkatutak na damit, at malas lang.. hindi din ako namanicuran. Then bigla umulan ng malakas so I need to use my payong na oh soo mahal.. (dahil automatic cya) at dahil water is dripping all over nilagay ko muna sya sa gilid ng upuan ko sa bus.. but then I realize nawawala ung MEDIA id ko (na nawala ko yata nun Dec 25).. nawindang ang beauty ko.. bumaba ako sa masikip na bus without my payong dahil sa kakaisip ko kung san ko naiwan ung id ko. And now I don’t have everything.. my Id, my payong, at sira ang mga kuko ko.. ayaw ko tuloy lumabas muna ulit ng bahay.. I’m wondering anong kamalasan n nmn mangyayari sa akin? ahahaha

All I Want for Christmas

Guess who’s the last person who greets me last Christmas? It’s HIM! Him as in the person I wish I can spend every morning I wake up, him as in someone I like, 48 years ago pa and for a million reasons it can’t be.. Not now, not ever, not in this lifetime. And for some unknown reasons I still like him nevertheless. Well I didn’t expect na i-greet nya pa ko that day… and I kinda soothe myself na pag di nya ko binati ng Christmas maybe It's a sign that I should let go of whatever feeling I have for him. Pero binati nya nga ako.. at syempre ang saya ko! Uy kilig! Kahit wala akong mga xmas gift natanggap.. at wala akong Noche Buena aus na din.. and then I thought.. what’s the meaning? Pano na ung mga sign ko.. what’s this all about? At xempre.. quality tym ulit kahit sa txt lang.. with every hope na he will txt back and luckily he txt back.. but when I told him I miss him and will I ever see him again? oopps.. I said the wrong magic words.. and God knows when will I ever hear from him again.

Is it Christmas?

It’s Christmas Eve and guess where I am? Unlike other people whose busy preparing their Noche Buena I’m at the office working! Haay.. feeling ko nun ako pinakamalungkot na tao sa buong mundo. Without family, and friends, and worst no food and picture taking and fancy dresses! Even my hershey's chocolate didn’t able to cure my misery! Kakaasar talaga ung panahon na un… di ko maexplain.. pero kakaasar talaga! And I can’t even compose my own personal greetings to everyone.

Anyway bumawi nmn ng Christmas morning.. There’s no place like home talaga… aside dun sa nadala sa hospital ung kapatid ko everything turns out to be ok nmn. kahit di ako natulog.. ayos lang basta I can spend quality time with the family.. di ko nga lang nakita ung mga friends ko sa bataan (and I miss them..really…) kasi I can’t be in too many places at once diba?haha another good thing about Christmas is all those foods.. ung feeling na you like to eat everything and nothing at once? Saka unlike those past Christmas… wala na kong napamaskuha! 200 lang pilit pa! which makes me wish i'm still younger. tapos talo pa ko sa bingo.. wala talaga kong luck nun.. pero aus lang masaya pa din nmn..

And finally I’m able to create my Christmas message to everyone! Di ko na nga lang nasend ng traditional 12 o’clock but it’s still Christmas Day right? =)