nOrtHerN inVasiOn: part 2

TRIVIA: i've just read somewhere that Pagudpud's name came from the word pagod (tired) and pudpud (worn out) i don't know what was worn out maybe their shoes or the tire of their vehicle or maybe both. And i totally agree to whoever said that because really it was tiring but it was worth it.

Novemer 6, 2008
Day 1: Pagudpud

WELCOME TO PAGUDPUD!

5:30am: we thought it was a 12hour drive from manila but we arrive earlier than we expected kahit na kung san lupalop pa kami nagstop over. Manong driver at si kuyang konduktor ask us kung san daw kami bababa. maybe they are not used to see 2 girls travelling alone na di alam kung san pupunta. sabi namin sa blue lagoon. ang layo daw nun.. bakit di nalang sa saud beach mas madami daw resort dun at hindi isolated ang lugar... but since matigas ulo namin dalawa ni wala pa din sila nagawa.. blue lagoon is our destination so be it. =) pero di nga nagsisinungaling sila kuya...more layo nga ang blue lagoon... dulo na yata un ng ilocos. another 45 minutes to 1 hr drive from saud. sabi nila wala pa daw tricycle ng mga ganung oras so ibababa nalang daw nila kami sa resto malapit dun.. but i found out later walang resto malapit dun. i really don't know kung anu ba ang malapit at malayo sa kanila. luckily may tricycle na sa kanto and this is it... our V-cation begins now! yey! WELCOME TO PAGUDPUD!

BLUE LAGOON
as of the moment this is the farthest place i've been to... but seeing blue lagoon for the first time we arrived at pagudpud parang nawala lahat ng pagod namin sa katawan. the water is really blue and the view is captivating. i thought i'm seeing paradise from afar..

blue lagoon: bluer than blue - di nga lang masadong captured sa photo

walang katapusang katubigan nevertheless i luv it =)

the resort that we're planning to stay at, is along blue lagoon also.. kaya lang pinakadulo na naman.. ewan ko ba.. ang hilig lang namin ni thea sa mga dulo ng walang hanggan!hehe we stayed at Kapuluan Vista. We saw that resort on the internet.. tapos nandun si Heart Evangelista sa pics.. si Heart Evangelista talaga ung dahilan bakit namin pinili ung place.haha dahil nga budgeted lang kami ung pinili nmin rum is 1000/night lang. kahit off peak walng tawad siguro mukha kaming mayaman.haha enweiy our P1000 had an inclusion of welcome drink and breakfast.. so ok na din... besides the place is really superb.

KAPULUAN VISTA: view from our cottage - wish i could go back here

view from the balcony - mejo sosyal my pool =)

8:00am after we settled ourselves at magpahinga ng konti dumating na ung sundo naming tricycle. whom we met dun sa bus stop... his name is kuya jesus... he said he'll tour us sa buong pagudpud for P1200.. mahal sa unang tingin pero pag naexperience mu libutin ang buong pagudpud... magbibigay ka pa ng tip. di muna kami nagswim sa blue lagoon even though the water is tempting.. kase hyper pa kami makita ang buong pagudpud!

1st STOP: KABIGAN FALLS

- which i always mistakenly say KAIBIGAN FALLS. eh mayabang si thea may lagi akong pinagtatawanan.hehe It wasa 30-45 minutes trek... na feeling ko hihimatayin na ko. kase we haven't had enough sleep at di pa kami kumakain ng totoong food since we arrived at bigla maglalakad kami sa bundok at dadaan kami ng 3 ilog? haaay.. but what was surprising when you were in pagudpud although feeling mu mamamatay ka na sa pagod but when you reach your destination you'll forget everything and just admire the beauty of nature.

on the way to the falls with ate na tour guide

mountaineers: why? because i said so! =)

the river: kahit ilan tatawirin namin?haha


THE FALLS: finally

the best way to quench the thirst sabay kanta ng "the coconut nut is a giant nut..." haha

2nd stop: CAPE BOJEADOR LIGHTHOUSE

dito na magsisimula ang sakit sa katawan na byahe. the lighthouse is located at the town of Burgos Ilocos Norte. Malayo sya sa Pagudpud.. 1-2 hrs na byahe? dito namin naranasan ni thea makatulog sa tricycle kahit gaano pa katagtag at kainit ang byahe nung mga panahon na un. But then again... hyper na ulet kami pagdating namin dun... it's not everyday you'll gonna see a place like that. Walang entrance fee. magdodonate ka lang kahit magkano... we asked kung may multo dun... sabi nung caretaker kung my 3rd eye ka my free ghost hunting ka pa... luckily we only have 2 eyes..haha

outside the lighthouse

the view from the lighthouse: bigla gusto kong maging poet =)

3rd STOP: BANGUI WINDMILLS

who says windmills can only be seen at switzerland? little that we know philippines had its very own windmills and a very huge ones... everbody is welcome on the wind farm and we had a chance na makita ng malapitan ang mgabreath taking and monstrous windmills... wala ulet entrance... pero wala ding tao...maybe because kami lang may guts magpunta ng katanghaliang tapat dun.hehe

THE WINDMILLS: para sa kapangyarihan ng josa? nyahaha

now we know kung anong feeling ng langgam

NEXT STOP: SAUD BEACH

it's the most popular beach in northern part of the country.. but on our way to SAUD BEACH.. si kuyang driver nahuli pa ng parang MMDA ng ilocos... imagine.. ang hirap nga ng transpo dun pero my MMDA sila!haha di nmin naintindihan ung mga usap nila kasi ilocano.. we don't know what happened basta tapos nun pinaalis nalang kami bigla. Nweiy.. back to saud beach.. parang ok din pala magstay to that place.. the beach is pretty... hmmmnn.. basta.. undescribable... maganda.period haha di din kami nagswim.. kasi wala kaming dalang pamalit so just we buy some of our pasalubong there instead.

SAUD BEACH: ooh soo tempting

we're tired.. we really were kaso konti palang ung napuputahan namin and we spent most of our time travelling... but we wouldn't miss the chance to see other places the haven of the north could offer...

PARAISO NI ANTON: nasa tabi lang sya ng daan.. syempre wala pa ding entrance... sabi nila my healing power daw ug water from the falls... saka drinkable syempre... but we wasn't able to it kase my dala akong mineral water eh..hehe

PATAPAT VIADUCT: its a very long bridge.. eto ata ung dinadaanan ng mga bus papuntang Cagayan. when you're here you'll see the greater part of the sea.. parang scar.. kaso wala kaming pics... kase mukha na kaming haggard nun napadaan kami dito.hehe

AGUA GRANDE RIVER PARK: it's where the river and the sea meets.. cool!

4:30 pm BACK TO THE RESORT

after we pay kuya jesus 1300 (i told you bibigyan mu sya ng tip at the end of the day at kuripot pa kami nun!hehe) dumerecho na agad kami sa cottage to nap.. di na namin nagawa ung original plan na mag swimming after... kaso napasarap ung tulog namin and then we woke up at 8...nagdinner lang kami ng cup noodles pero buti nalang naalala ni thea may ung welcome drink namin and what's best to end the day is to drink a glass of margarita... winner ang margarita! haha so hindi lang sa isang glass and nainom nmin di pa ubos ung hawak namin nagorder na ulet kami ng isa pa... anyway P75 lang nmn sya kaya keri pa.. buti nalang 10pm nagsasara ang bar kung hindi baka maubos namin ung stock nila.haha

THE MARGARITA: i want more!!! :p

Day 1 is over and it's a wrap...

nOrtHerN inVasiOn

OMG! another plan has come to reality...

thank's to THEA: my gala buddy, vacation planner and demonyita like me. With her the trip was a mind blowing, nerve wracking and a series of unforgetable unplanned experience worthy of another exhilarating city escape amidst our financial crisis after that.hehe

thus the trip was all but F.U.N!!

OFF TO ILOCOS

nov 5 2008 : our original plan was that alis kami ng manila at nov 6 para sa kapakanan ng mga may pasok sa opis para 1 day leave lang if ever... since 2 lang pala kame (we decided na wag ng ituloy ang 3 months in the making na V-CATION na ito! joke..hehe). we decided na we move the date at Nov 5 para sunday back in the city na kame. all freshen up? =) and ready to work work work!
4:30pm: meeting place at sm manila. dahil limited ang budget we need to buy our baon para sa 10 hr drive? (or so they say) and for our food fortheo stay there. in short takot kame magutom!hehe as usual late ako.. kaya super bilis ang paggrocery na iyon..

the bus (ok sana kung hindi lang dahil sa ipislandia) *photo copied from sweet sentiments

6:00pm: we arrived early sa bus terminal.. sa rcj bus ung suggestion ko.. kase mas mura (P550 fare) saka ok daw ayon na rin sa mga niresearchko.. pumayag nmn si thea.. little that we know na ung pwesto namin is ipislandia! eeewww! up to now kinikilabutan pa din ako pag naaalala ko. (so no pics for that!) so we ask the conductor if pwede kami lumipat ng pwesto.. sabihin daw namin sa management kase baka daw may nakareserve na sa uupuan namin. ung pwesto na gusto namin sa harap meron na nga..MIGUEL ang pangalan.. we really prayed hard para wag sya dumating.. imagined how we catch our breath whenever there's someone na sumasakay sa bus whom we thought bagay ang MIGUEL na name. fortunately wala nmn.. so ok na relax na!hehe we left for pagudpud at exacty 6:30.. there's really no turning back for this trip. =)

the luggage: ..na konti lang.. say no to pants kase kami.. =)

the baon (love ko to!): with watermelon float for me and coke float for thea; so much for pagtitipid.hehe

12midnight (la union) : the trip was well.. or so we thought... hyper pa kami ni thea magkwentuhan ng everything under the sun? or moon?haha ng bigla ung kasakay namin nagsalita ng kung anu-ano.. he shout.. he swore. at nabulabog talaga ang buong bus.. (iniisip ko baka sya si Miguel). little that we now my baon pala si Manong ng isang fundador na lapad.. and it was empty when they saw it.. ibig sabihin nagsolo si manong! hindi man lang nagalok ng tagay! kung nagalok sya edi sana lahat kami masaya! tuloy sya lang ang naiwan sa pulis station.

police station: the stopover

dahil sa nerbyos... i ask thea tuloy kung tama ba ung desisyon namin magtravel alone..

thea: adik tau eh.. pangatawanan na natin to..

ok! sabi mo eh!

....to be continue....

V-cation

my fave president nonetheless

yey! i'm going somewhere ulet.. kasi idol ko si imelda marcos and i like creepy places and the beach syempre..

in short i'm gonna invade the north!
wonder what will happen kase que sera sera tong trip na to at excited na ko.. =0

just wanna enjoy life! =)

back from the dead

say what? its been a loooonng while since i posted my last blog entry.

i don't know what happened back then. there were times i will write a new topic but when i'm on the middle of my entry... puff! suddenly i don't know where to put that period. so then i will erase all the things i've written... hit the sign out button and close the window.. and voila! i had no blog entry, new ideas and no everything! i just hope this time i'm back for real.. no more invisible mode and my writer instinct will flow nonetheless!



so this is TOKLAY... signing on again. =)







yey! i finally put that perion again! and ooppss that big smiley face! hehe

Typhoon Frank

yesterday i wish for a rain and today God granted me that wish.. kaso naman nasobrahan.. super lakas na ng ulan! si typhoon Frank parang nagenjoy sa pagstay sa pilipinas at all over the metro ang baha. lalo na sa kahabaan ng espana.. which is no doubt na babaha talaga dahil konting ulan lang dun.. baha na agad.. and unlucky me di ako nakaligtas sa hagupit ni frank (kunyari close kame) super hirap ang dinanas ko bago nakarating sa opis.. kasama na ang yuckee na baha!eeww.. at parang ngaasar pa.. the song that was playing through my ipod ganto ang lyrics:


I can see clearly now the rain has gone! so much for a wish! tsk tsk!

missing and missing them still...

my girlfriends favorite pose. :)

say what? it's been 2 months++ since i last saw my closest college friends... and i miss them terribly. they are those people i'm with during those college days we struggle (sa pangongopya at pangongodiko) at paghahanap ng mga gagawa ng projects namin kasehodang magbayad kami ng 3thousand sa walang kwentang flash project o kaya naman magbenta kami ng friend.haha Sometimes i wonder if we all have different personality or we jive because we had this thing in common..

wala akong magawa right at this moment so better be, i write something for them. it's time to know who they are and why i love them so much: (in order of appearance..hehe)

LHEA: i met her first nun enrollment ng mga freshmen sa plm, kala ko ate sya ni josef(ex nya). then i met her again nun 1st day ng class.. that was the moment i knew we're destined to be friends. di na kami nghiwalay after nun.. she looked like a bully kasi mukha syang mataray.. kala mo gimikera syang sobra pero wag ka, metrobar palang nararating nya hangang ngaun.haha masyado lang syang pranka so sometimes people often misjudge her, but really she's a good person..my pagkatanga nga lang minsan.haha

AU: classmate ko sya forever. kahit magreshuffle ang blocks..hindi pwedeng hindi kami magkasama. nameet namin sya ni lhea nun mga panahon na naghahanap kami ng NR. hindi ko alam kung sinong tontacles ang nagsabi na ang NR ay Nursing Room when in fact Engineering freshmen kami. First day ng college life nagcutting class kame.haha hindi sya nagmumura pero napagmura ko sya nun nagkacrush ako ky JOEY. kasama ko sya magstalk ng mga crush namin dati.. pero ngaun hindi na kasi my love of her life na sya.hehe she's one the person i trust most..

XY: she's the sosyalera turned taong kanto turned hooker ng mga bading.ahaha puro mcdo lang kinakain nya nun unang panahon.. pero wala syang choice nun naging friends nya kami ayaw namin ng Mcdo dati. natuto sya kumain sa 664 at jollibee.. but later it turns out kami naipluwensyahan nya.. favorite na din namin mcdo ngaun.haha sya ung binebenta namin pag kailangan namin ng gagawa ng projects at masarap maovernyt sa kanila. madaming foods..haha sometimes iyakin at masungit pero she's really a true friend di ka nya ilalaglag ever.

THEA: she's the devil incarnate!haha joke.. my soulmate! she's the ate in our group.. i would not be a better person without her.. naks..haha takot ako sa kanya dahil pag my katangahan akong ginawa.. sigurado malaking gulo.haha kudos to all the cutting classes and til now minsan nagcu2t pa din kami sa work..haha pag kaming 2 magkasama everything seems possible. at hanggang ngaun di pa din namin alam ung plan ni lord para sa amin.hehe

ETHEL: my kababayan at sobrang bait.. she's the sweet girl in the group.. she always had a smile for everyone.. kailangan ng neutralizer kaya nanjan sya.haha

ANNA: ang crush ng bayan..she looks like an angel pero bago un.. nagevolve din sya, sabi nga ni xy nung hindi pa namin sya friend mas maganda pa daw ung paa nya..haha at bakla sya sa totoong buhay. pinakakuripot na tao sa balat ng lupa. favorite nya mag invisible mode. unlang masasabi ko..haha

we hardly see each other ngaung mga panahon na to.. but i know time and space can't come beetween us. at isa lang masasabi ko: SCREW WORK!

shy type pa ko jan. :)

Happy Mother's Day!

it's always been a wonder to me how this woman can do everything in just a blink of an eye.. how she manage anything like it was just a simple task.. but in fact its very complicated things. she's not a magician but sometimes i really think she's one. she's not a superhero but she's always there when i needed her. she's not my friend but she knows the real me. our's wasn't an ideal relationship, we always fight.. (anything basta napagtripan kong inisin sya!) but amidst all that, she's still that one person i know i can come home to when everything else in my world turns upside down. it's not everyday that i can make a blog entry for this very special woman.. and it's not everyday i can say how lucky i am to have such great mom. =)

HOMESICKED

it's been a week since we had this vacation to puerto galera but up to this date we still have a hangover in that place.. and surprised, surprised!! we're definetly coming back.. sooner than i expected.. parang ang dami lang naming pera.. (but actually wala na!)hehe they said that when you are in BORA wala ka pang one day na nakauwi in manila nahohomesick ka na.. pero kami.. homesick na din.. at puerto galera palang un ah.. basta can't explain the feeling but there's something in that place that you want to come back for more..

just arrived and we're all going static!

THE SUNSET: GALERA VERSION

i'm not a nature lover type of person.. pero naapreciate ko talaga ang madramang sunset dito..

LAST DAY ON THE BEACH

last day na.. at ang lungkot pala nun..

TIP: pag nasa batangas vicinity ka.. wag kang maghahanap ng GOTO sa mga food stalls dun.. you will never know kung ano iseserve nila sa table nyo!

batangas version of GOTO.. hmmnn yummy ba?haha

eto siguro KICKER kung baket gusto namen bumalik agad soon..hehe

no more drama days (^_^) muna

we're going somewhere! excited na ko.. this was the first time i'm going away far from my comfort zone. =) suddenly there's something i look forward to everyday.. out muna lahat ng kadramahan sa buhay.. and i'm focusing sa pagmamaganda ko kung san lupalop man kami makarating.hehe ang black and white na buhay bigla nagkaroon ng kulay! (parang sinabawang gulay.ahaha) kinabahan pa ko the other night kasi bigla naasar ko si TIN and i thought di na kami matutuloy.. buti nalang konting drama lang sya.. 1 hour lang kasi sya umiyak. and i can say we're all set on this trip..hihii

depression? 101.

so someone's just broke your heart.. or stress out ka na sa work place mu.. o kaya nmn mas malalim na reason.. di ka makapagshopping! but you still don't know what's got into you.. here's some things you feel and subconsciously doing ('till it turns out to be a habbit) when you think you're not depressed but actually.. you are!

• you're not hungry- wala ka naman kinain the whole day.. (ok.. nagtry ka kumain ng buto ng kalabasa.) but the real food? zero intake ka.. because ang pait lang ng panlasa mo.. para kang kumain ng ampalayang hindi luto.. kahit ang sangkatutak na syrup sa pancake mo.. hindi mo malasahan.
• shopping galore! - suddenly you feel the need to shop.. kahit anu bibilin mu at kahit maubos ung sweldo mu ng last cut-off ok lang sayo..
• busy- ang busy mu na bigla. di ka pwede sa kahit saan kasi my gagawin ka ngaun, mamya at sa mga susunod na araw.. pero wala naman talaga! gusto mo lang umuwi agad sa bahay nyo para umiyak o kaya naman mag-isip kung bakit ganito ang buhay mo!
• war freak- alam mo sa sarili mo na peace loving citizen ka.. pero for some unknown reason gusto mong awayin lahat ng tao sa paligid mo.. kahit ung madadal na katabi mo sa mrt na wala naman ginagawa sau, gusto mong pasakan ng kahit ano para tumigil lang sya sa pagsasalita.
• cry baby- napakaiyakin mo lang.. kahit ano iniiyakan mo.. basta nakakarelate ka.. iiyak ka.. mandadamay ka pa ng mga friends.. kaya bigla lahat kayo sa bahay.. puro nega na. =)
• snow queen- wala ng appeal sayo lahat ng lalake mo sa buhay.. dahil ang tingin mo yata sa kanila lahat sila asshole. ung isa lagi sinasabi sayo na miss ka na.. pero di mo masabihan ng i miss you too.. dahil feeling mo napakapait ng salitang un.. sasabihin mo lang: "ganun ba?" hanggang mabwisit na sya sau at maglaho sya ng parang bula. ung isa naman.. napakatagal mo ng admirer.. diring diri ka lang sa mga text nya.. na gusto mo na magpalit ng number right there and then. meron naman.. crush mu from way back then na bigla nagresurface at pinapansin ka nya na ngaun! dapat ang saya mo na sana pero hindi mo mafeel.. dahil tamad na tamad ka lang katext sya at mas nasasarapan ka pa na maglaro ng psp. at crush mu na naman dati.. sa chat naman ang communication nyo.. close naman kayo infairness pero di mo lang maintindihan sa sarili mo kung bakit tuwing magsign-in ka.. invisible mode ka pag alam mong online sya. =) tapos madedepress ka kung bakit wala kang boylet.. at maniniwala ka na meron pala talagang karma dahil ang sama mo.haha
• hobby- ang dami mo lang bagong hobby.. bigla gusto mo basahin lahat.. kahit (Holy Bible.) magmula sa self help book hanggang sa mga manga serye. lahat binabasa mo. tapos mo ng basahin uulitin mo pa din. mahilig ka na din maglaro ng mga rpg.. at ang favorite mong laruin ung mamamatay lahat ng kalaban mo.. walang appeal sau ang mga pambatang games.. basta ganun lang dapat ang theme.. patayan.. =)
• techie- bigla techie ka na! lahat ng bagong gadget dapat meron ka.. ang hilig mo lang maginternet.. pero nakatingin ka lang naman sa screen... papaturo ka sa friend mo na magaling magtanggal ng virus sa pc.. at tatanggalin nyo un ng manual.. meaning walang gamit n anti-virus software. =) tapos magiging masaya ka na for a while kasi my naaccomplish kang alam mong hindi kaya ng mga taong dahilan ng depression mo..
• papansin- alam mong mejo ok ka na.. (or so you taught..) pati lahat ng tao ang akala ang saya mu na ulit.. bigla close na kau ng kinakaasaran mo dati.. new hairstyle ka pa nga eh.. gagawa ka ngaun ng entry sa blog.. tulad nito.

isang kwentong walang kwenta: nytmare

then she woke up and realized that her nytmare was over... should she be thankful? because after a long time of sleeping she can finally live her life again. a life bit more realistic than her so called 'nytmare'. a lot less pain and a little less complicated. but instead of moving off her bed.. she lay still.. remembering how good her dream was at the start.. how everything happens unexpectedly and how it turns out just fine.. thinking about what was happening at that moment... it was nothing she ever dreamt of even in her real life but hey, she's in dreamland so she let all things be.. it was the best dream she ever had and she wish she could stay there forever... and then slowly her dreams was turning into a nytmare... a nytmare so addictictive that she let herself stay there even for a moment, a moment that turns out for a very long time that she even forget to wake up..

she didn't notice that her nytmare was slowly killing her... because she's too busy wishing that her nytmare will then again turn back as her best dream ever... she waited, and waited and waited... then she caught there by surprised... her dream wasn't comming back and her nytmare was really intended to kill her. she feels like drowning, she cannot breathe, and everything turns out black... she knows she needed to wake up... but nobody's in her room... she had to wake up on her own... and then she finally do... she lay still wide awake.. should she be grateful because she woke up? she didn't know.

then tears runs from her eyes and she didn' t know how to stop it... everytime she remember her dreams her tears keep on flowing like a river... lying there on her bed wide awake.. she's thinking if she still want to sleep again.. fall into deep slumber of her nytmare.. because she's thinking that it may probably a nytmare but it was her favorite worst nymare. and then she decided to sleep again.. but then there was nothing..no more dreams, no more dreamlands, no more nytmare.

i'm stupid.i really am.

*MONDAY - march 17, 2008

this was probably my worst day so far... nagiba na schedule ng pasok ko.. and i hate it! taong gabi ako.. at hindi basta basta i set ang body clock mo na kelangan n nyang magising ng 4:30am na almost 1 year nya ginagawa na 5am cya natutulog. but since i have no choice so i need to wake up early para makapag- in ako sa opis ng exactly 7am but the worst thing is... nagising ako that day ng 6am.. at sa bagal kong kumilos... imposibleng umabot ako sa opis ng exactly 7am.. but thank God.. late lang ako ng 10mins.. (record breaking na paliligo ang ginawa ko)haha

but the worst thing came at 8:30am.. 1st day today ng bagong program with pay.. and every seconds count.. napansin ko na nagpafluctuate ang signal ko but i didn't do anything kasi hindi ko nmn alam ang gagawin ko.. (tonta!) my boss came at nagtanong cya bakit ganun.. at wala akong maisagot! i just thought kasi na siguro pagumaga mahina ang microwave signals.. tanga ko talaga... at un na... kelangan namin maaus un before 9am but we're too late.. kelangan na namin magsign-on but too bad.. nawala kami sa ere.. my problem nga ung equipments namin.. i wanted to help pero anu naman matutulong ko? hindi naman ako nakikialam sa mga wirings sa opis namin... he's asking me different tools at hindi ko alam kung saan nakalagay and i bet my partner that didn't know it also and everything that was happening kasi nakaupo lang sya at sumasagot ng telepono.. parang call center agent! at noon ko lang din narining magmura ung boss ko.. kaya i know it was really serious!

i know it was somehow my fault.. kasi almost 1 year na ko sa opis pero mukha para pa din akong baguhan.. at nahihiya na ako dahil everyday i love you na akong mukhang tanga.. nadepress talaga ako that day.. kinausap pa kami nung VP for operations.. tinanong nya kung kaya daw ba nmin mag-operate ng walang supervisions ng mga seniors (dahil my trip to palawan lahat ng boss) at magpapaiwan daw sya pagsumagot kami ng hindi.. syempre kawawa nmn cya diba? i know wala na silang tiwala sa akin.. and i know i have to do something to redeem myself kaya lang ano naman? haay... haaay talaga! shit happens and it happens when you least expected it.. pero my words of wisdom ung isa kong boss.. sabi nya: don't let one failure puts you down instead accept it as a challenge.

don't say bad words

working in a sectarian company has its own ups and downs.. there you'll meet people na hindi yata marunong magalit (or so i thought) =p then there are these people na papansinin ka lang once in a blue moon.. (but sometimes, i want to think that it's really my fault kung hindi ko sila close after almost a year of working with them in the same company.. baka siguro ang angas ng dating ko..hehehe) and most of the time there is one person na kahit walang ginagawa sa akin asar ako.. (mas mataas ang level ky sapno sa kabwisitan ko sa kanya!) but really it's fun working with them eventhough i had this feeling na i can't really express myself when i'm with them.. ung tipong di ka na makahinga dahil pinipigil mo kung anu ung nafefeel mo.. hehe


i'm a type of person na hobby na magmura.. parang normal lang kahit anong klaseng mura pa un.. because i don't really think i mean it.. i actually can't believe na nakakapagpigil akong magsalita ng 'forbidden words' pag nasa opis ako..


then there is this one time na hindi ko na napigil ung sarili ko na nasabi ko ang word na: SIRA ULO! sa officemate ko in front of all of my boss..(kala ko naman kasi close kame nung officemate ko na un) at di ko ineexpect ung reaction nila! grabe.. big deal! super big deal! it's like i killed someone at that very moment! and to think sira ulo lang ung sinabi ko.. from that moment on.. feeling ko ba ung tingin nila sa akin i'm the worst person in the world.. na anytime daw ready magpakawala ng 'alien words'! josme! un lang un sinabi ko nawindang na sila! grabe talaga.. then they also ask me kung anu daw ba ung nangyayari sa akin.. o lumalabas na daw ba ung totoo kong kulay! (like i was somekind of a freak!) then one time ung boss ko.. tinanong ako kung may mag-iinvite daw ba sakin sa isang service pupunta daw ba ako.. hmmm... parang gusto na nya akong ipagpray-over! as if i was possessed by some evil spirit!hahaha


i don't know if i'll charge this experience in funny moments category or maybe sa most embarassing moments... until then.. super iniisip ko na ung mga sinasabi ko.. kaya lang ang hirap pala nun! lalo na pagasar ka na.. parang sasabog na ung dibdib mo... good thing naimbento ang CR na my salamin.. nagmumurahan kami ng reflection ko when we're alone.. hahaha nababaliw na naman ako.. =)


just thinking out loud: i can't change overnight to what people expect me to be... i'm just human and my imperfections are part of being one..

a long week

it has been a long week.. and being single as i always was.. =) hindi dapat ako excited magvalentines day because really for me.. there's nothing to celebrate for it's just an ordinary day..haha but this year it comes sooner as i expected..


tuesday - feb 11: RAKESTRA: rockista for a nyt..

like chyng said.. hindi bagay sa akin maging rakista.. wala daw sa personalidad ko.. at lalo na sa pagmumukha ko..haha but i do agree with her because wala naman talaga.. but since ava urged me to go to UP fair.. so mega join ako. for P80 i was able to see the famous band in pinoy rock music scene today. and i really appreciate sandwich with special appearance of marc abaya na oh so yummy (before kasi hindi ako naniniwala kila tin.)

at i saw my new found crush sa katauhan ni mong (as per ava un daw name nya) he's really cute! by the way.. gitarista cya ng sandwich.. =) then there was urbandub wih philharmonic orchestra.. they are really good.. =) i'm just a little bit disappointed because i wasn't able to see parokya ni edgar. kamikazee, and hale which was the main reason bakit ako sumama in the first place.. but in a way.. i was really glad sumama pa din ako.. dahil bigla converted EMO na ko..hahaha




thursday - feb 14: black valentines - a singles nyt out (daw) =)

yey! it's valentines day! my friends xy, thea, lhea, and au decided to celebrate it for a change.. single daw kasi sila for that day.. i do'nt know if that's true or yun lang ung gusto nilang paniwalaan..hahaha so we decided na magdinner that day.. the plan was 5pm ung call time.. pero dahil late as ever ako.. 6pm na kami nagkita-kita to thea's annoyance.. because my pasok cya ng 9pm that night.. (kawawa nmn)hehe naubos ung oras namin kakahanap kung san kami magdidiner kasi natakot na kami na mabiktima n nmn because the last time na magdinner kami sa greenbelt.. hindi nmin nakain ung inorder namin.. at last we found the place where we spend our black valentine.. MR. rocketfeeler is the name of the place and we have our sumptous dinner.. parang last supper na nga eh..=)

i just forgot the names of the foods we eat but the food was a 10! and we finish it wih a supper yummy choclate cake.. sarap!

we didn't notice the time until we learned that our time is up dahil papasok na si thea may.. bitin ang gala..hahaha but anyway.. we have a great time and who said that valentines day was just for lovers? i am strongly disagree with that.hehe

lost

---time space warp--

not so long time ago.. pero matagal na din naman na talaga... i had a crush with this someone.. itago naten sa pangalang joey.. (haha) i remember when we talked sa phone sobra kaba ko nun.. before during and after the conversation.. un parang defense lagi o kaya naman ung tipong first job interview..... pero at least i had the guts to talk to him that time.. at kahit hindi kami close nauubos lahat ng barya ko sa kakahulog sa payphone.hihii ... at doon ko nalaman na tumatanggap ng 25 cents ang pldt payphone. lol

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i miss the old times when i had all the guts in the world.. di ko ba alam kung naubos na ba un sa dami ng pagtitrip na ginawa ko nung unang panahon..haha kasi naman.. my ittxt lang ako kanina.. (TXT lang ha!) humingi pa ako ng sign! nyeta.. taz bigla nakakita ako ng sign kya nagtxt na ko..pero mangungumusta lang nmn talaga ako.. grabe ung lamig ko.. parang defense ulit!haha
naiinis ako... simpleng bagay lang un ha.. parang nawawala lahat ng lakas ng loob ko.. pakibalik kung my nakakita!! *wink

FREAKY then stupid me.. =)

i love going to malls.. anyway.. who didn't? =) it's just occur to me (kanina lang) that although i love going to my self proclaimed fave past time spot there are certain things that i find scary, amusing and stupid at the same time.

• i'm afraid to salespeople - it's just that i feel uncomfortable when they start blabbering about their products and i have this feeling na pag napagod sila sa kakasalita they will get mad at me pag hindi ako bumili sa kanila!haha
• i'm afraid to credit card agents- they are the ones na sasabihin sau na nakasuot ka daw ng color of the day nila (kahit napakaliit na kulay lang nmn talaga un sa whole outfit mo) at uubusin ang oras mo sa kung anu-anung freebies daw na ibibigay nila sau given na may credit card ka! which of course, the one thing i don't have! so nasayang ang precious time ko.. at ang boses nila.. =)
• i'm afraid to use the cubicles in their comfort rooms- when i was a little younger.. hindi talaga ako pumapasok sa mga public CRs.. maarte ako eh.haha ayos lang sa akin kahit magka-UTI ako.. pipigilin ko any call of nature basta wag lang ako pumasok sa mga public restrooms. i don't know kung katamaran ba un o kaartehan. maybe both!haha pero improving na ako ngaun.. pumapasok na ko sa loob ng CR para magsalamin at magretouch.. but i can only pee sa CR ng mga sinehan.. i don't know what's the explanation...pero magastos..grabe!=)
• i'm afraid to escalators - one of my stupidity..hehe ewan ko ba.. hindi ako makasakay at makababa sa esalator na hindi tumitingin sa bawat steps. coz i have this feeling na when i ride through them.. feeling ko ba maiipit ung mga paa ko and worst.. mahuhulog ako! tanga talaga!haha
• i'm afraid to elecronic sensors- eto ung pag lumalabas ka ng store magbee-beep pag may ninenok ka! i've notice kanina when i was about to go out sa powerbooks.. i'm holding my breath kasi feeling ko tutunog yun.. and God knows what will happen to me pag napagbintangan akong nagsho-shoplift..pero really, i didn't steal anything.. paranoid lang talaga ako!haha i do admit i have my fair share of kalokohan.. way back.. (once upon a time..) at wala nmn nakahuli sa akin at nagbagong buhay na ako.. promise!=) basta lang.. hindi lang ako makahinga pag dumadaan ako sa mga ganun..hehe

i'm thinking kung my nakalimutan pa akong 'scary things' pag nasa malls ako.. but for now yan muna..

i know i'm being stupid feeling all of this lalo na sa malls na parang 2nd home ko na!haha pero ganun yata talaga.. admit it or not.. may katangahan taung lahat paminsan minsan.. and as for me.. i will always be stupid .. and a pretty stupid fo a record! naks!haha at pag my nagawa akong another stupidity..i just laugh at myself.. anyway.. i'm the only one who knew.. na 'ooops.. i did it agai!n!' haha

thief for a day

i never taught na mahirap pala ang trabaho ng mga akyat bahay gang.. at hindi nila ako tatanggapin dahil ang bagal kong magbukas ng sirang door knob..haha
i assumed that this was just an ordinary day until ava got stuck up sa banyo namin at akala namin we will wait for a couple of hours para mabuksan ung pinto dahil unfortunately si anjo (her brother) lang ang nakakabukas nun! luckily(?) si gab (na isa pang housemate sa bahay ni kuya) ay nakulong din the other day at napanood ko kung pano binuksan ni anjo ang pinto.. but it never occured to me that i will be able to try that trick dahil sa palagay ko.. hindi ko un kayang gawin. but since we have no choice dahil papasok ako kanina at hindi ko naman pwedeng iwan si ava na nakakulong sa banyo.. ngtry na din ako.. at kahit matagal at maingay ang pagbubukas ko ng pinto.. at least we made it! but unfortunately for me i'm late for work (anyway, what's new?)hahaha

conclusion

don't under estimate the thieves.. because it really need a special talent na makapagnakaw within 3 minutes na walang nakakakita at nakakarinig..haha

and

practice makes perfect!hahaha

mood swing

i sometimes wonder just how many people had the chance to do whatever they like or had an interest doing such things they need to do?

and unfortunately I AM NOT ONE OF THEM!

since i enter college and took up engineering.. that's when i know.. i'm destined to be doomed! well (unfortunately again) i finished it on time amidst all the tears and fears and the cheating and cutting classes.. bonus pa.. i have a license! na up to this time i still can't believe it na meron nga talaga ako.. na para bang everything is falling into their right places.. but actually.. they're not! i have this feeling that i don't really belong here.. dahil hangang ngaun hindi ko pa din naapreaciate kung anu ba magagawa ng frequency and bandwidth sa buhay ko.. (well except of course na my sahod ako every fifteen days because of them..haha) but really i just don't get it!

i just want to be a cashier.. (haha.. stupid dreams!) anyway.. that's what i like.. a job na may kinalaman sa pera at pagkakaperahan.. (ok.. mukha na akong pera! so what?haha) at least makakarelate ako... and i will absolutely know kung ano ba magagawa ng pera sa buhay ko..=)
o kaya naman taga tupi ng towels ( sa another country syempre).. at least i won't be here in front of computer at 4:00 am researching anything about broadcasting.

ok..ok.. i can't do anything about all this things right now.. i'm an engineer (and not some kind of a cashier) and i have a job far from what i really like most.. but eventually.. and in fairness naman.. my job was -err - is far from being a complicated one.. except of course to some technical part.. and to some awkward moment na i look stupid in front of my boss..hehe i'm having a second tought.. and i admit i'm pretty stupid most of the times and especially for thinking that i had the worst job ever.. because really.. IT'S NOT! i just hope that i will come to my senses SOON! and i won't do anything that i will regret... err.. i really hope so.. =)

Amusement Park Mania

i don't know what Christmas season brings and everyone are going gaga over carnivals! and it doesn't spare me either. being one of those people whose searching for some breathtaking carnival rides which can make my insides go churning..

there goes the ever classic enchanted kingdom. pero parang wala nmng epekto ung mga rides dun.. we just go there for the sake of quality time with friends which we haven't seen for quite sometime and breaking away from the city even for a short period of time.

then recently we went to global fun carnival.. at kahit hndi ganun kafriendly ang mga tao dun because we had a hard time taking our own pictures dahil pahirapan makisuyo magpapictures sa kanila at konti ang rides na pwedeng sakyan.. well i can say ok nmn ang iilang mga rides dun. ung feeling na lalabas na ung gusto mong isuka.. hahaha gross! and i also learned that aside from choclates, riding sa nakakamatay na rides can somehow help you forget your broken heart. believe me.. wala ka talaga maiisip pag nakasakay ka na dun kundi bumaba.hahaha

i'm just wondering what are those people thinking when they invented those rides.. are they bored? or they just want to have fun? or are they brokenhearted too? but whatever their reasons are. thanks to them anyway.. and i'm looking forward in another carnival rides na mamamatay ako sa takot..hehe

7 years of bad luck

i just broke our mirror.. and as the old saying goes.. once you break a glass it means that it's 7 years of bad luck! 7 years! grabe.. 22? (^_^) na ko ngaun.. it means 29 na ko pag nawala ung bad luck? i wonder what else will happen to me when i feel that i already had my share of misfortune and misadventure. Being an optimistic once..i just want to look at the other side of this picture.. maybe that was the end of whatever curse(?) i'm experiencing now.haha anyway... maybe it's better not to think about it and let the fate take it's course... and before i forgot.. punta pala akong divisoria ngaun.. bibili ako ng salamin..