mood swing

i sometimes wonder just how many people had the chance to do whatever they like or had an interest doing such things they need to do?

and unfortunately I AM NOT ONE OF THEM!

since i enter college and took up engineering.. that's when i know.. i'm destined to be doomed! well (unfortunately again) i finished it on time amidst all the tears and fears and the cheating and cutting classes.. bonus pa.. i have a license! na up to this time i still can't believe it na meron nga talaga ako.. na para bang everything is falling into their right places.. but actually.. they're not! i have this feeling that i don't really belong here.. dahil hangang ngaun hindi ko pa din naapreaciate kung anu ba magagawa ng frequency and bandwidth sa buhay ko.. (well except of course na my sahod ako every fifteen days because of them..haha) but really i just don't get it!

i just want to be a cashier.. (haha.. stupid dreams!) anyway.. that's what i like.. a job na may kinalaman sa pera at pagkakaperahan.. (ok.. mukha na akong pera! so what?haha) at least makakarelate ako... and i will absolutely know kung ano ba magagawa ng pera sa buhay ko..=)
o kaya naman taga tupi ng towels ( sa another country syempre).. at least i won't be here in front of computer at 4:00 am researching anything about broadcasting.

ok..ok.. i can't do anything about all this things right now.. i'm an engineer (and not some kind of a cashier) and i have a job far from what i really like most.. but eventually.. and in fairness naman.. my job was -err - is far from being a complicated one.. except of course to some technical part.. and to some awkward moment na i look stupid in front of my boss..hehe i'm having a second tought.. and i admit i'm pretty stupid most of the times and especially for thinking that i had the worst job ever.. because really.. IT'S NOT! i just hope that i will come to my senses SOON! and i won't do anything that i will regret... err.. i really hope so.. =)