a long week

it has been a long week.. and being single as i always was.. =) hindi dapat ako excited magvalentines day because really for me.. there's nothing to celebrate for it's just an ordinary day..haha but this year it comes sooner as i expected..


tuesday - feb 11: RAKESTRA: rockista for a nyt..

like chyng said.. hindi bagay sa akin maging rakista.. wala daw sa personalidad ko.. at lalo na sa pagmumukha ko..haha but i do agree with her because wala naman talaga.. but since ava urged me to go to UP fair.. so mega join ako. for P80 i was able to see the famous band in pinoy rock music scene today. and i really appreciate sandwich with special appearance of marc abaya na oh so yummy (before kasi hindi ako naniniwala kila tin.)

at i saw my new found crush sa katauhan ni mong (as per ava un daw name nya) he's really cute! by the way.. gitarista cya ng sandwich.. =) then there was urbandub wih philharmonic orchestra.. they are really good.. =) i'm just a little bit disappointed because i wasn't able to see parokya ni edgar. kamikazee, and hale which was the main reason bakit ako sumama in the first place.. but in a way.. i was really glad sumama pa din ako.. dahil bigla converted EMO na ko..hahaha




thursday - feb 14: black valentines - a singles nyt out (daw) =)

yey! it's valentines day! my friends xy, thea, lhea, and au decided to celebrate it for a change.. single daw kasi sila for that day.. i do'nt know if that's true or yun lang ung gusto nilang paniwalaan..hahaha so we decided na magdinner that day.. the plan was 5pm ung call time.. pero dahil late as ever ako.. 6pm na kami nagkita-kita to thea's annoyance.. because my pasok cya ng 9pm that night.. (kawawa nmn)hehe naubos ung oras namin kakahanap kung san kami magdidiner kasi natakot na kami na mabiktima n nmn because the last time na magdinner kami sa greenbelt.. hindi nmin nakain ung inorder namin.. at last we found the place where we spend our black valentine.. MR. rocketfeeler is the name of the place and we have our sumptous dinner.. parang last supper na nga eh..=)

i just forgot the names of the foods we eat but the food was a 10! and we finish it wih a supper yummy choclate cake.. sarap!

we didn't notice the time until we learned that our time is up dahil papasok na si thea may.. bitin ang gala..hahaha but anyway.. we have a great time and who said that valentines day was just for lovers? i am strongly disagree with that.hehe

lost

---time space warp--

not so long time ago.. pero matagal na din naman na talaga... i had a crush with this someone.. itago naten sa pangalang joey.. (haha) i remember when we talked sa phone sobra kaba ko nun.. before during and after the conversation.. un parang defense lagi o kaya naman ung tipong first job interview..... pero at least i had the guts to talk to him that time.. at kahit hindi kami close nauubos lahat ng barya ko sa kakahulog sa payphone.hihii ... at doon ko nalaman na tumatanggap ng 25 cents ang pldt payphone. lol

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i miss the old times when i had all the guts in the world.. di ko ba alam kung naubos na ba un sa dami ng pagtitrip na ginawa ko nung unang panahon..haha kasi naman.. my ittxt lang ako kanina.. (TXT lang ha!) humingi pa ako ng sign! nyeta.. taz bigla nakakita ako ng sign kya nagtxt na ko..pero mangungumusta lang nmn talaga ako.. grabe ung lamig ko.. parang defense ulit!haha
naiinis ako... simpleng bagay lang un ha.. parang nawawala lahat ng lakas ng loob ko.. pakibalik kung my nakakita!! *wink

FREAKY then stupid me.. =)

i love going to malls.. anyway.. who didn't? =) it's just occur to me (kanina lang) that although i love going to my self proclaimed fave past time spot there are certain things that i find scary, amusing and stupid at the same time.

• i'm afraid to salespeople - it's just that i feel uncomfortable when they start blabbering about their products and i have this feeling na pag napagod sila sa kakasalita they will get mad at me pag hindi ako bumili sa kanila!haha
• i'm afraid to credit card agents- they are the ones na sasabihin sau na nakasuot ka daw ng color of the day nila (kahit napakaliit na kulay lang nmn talaga un sa whole outfit mo) at uubusin ang oras mo sa kung anu-anung freebies daw na ibibigay nila sau given na may credit card ka! which of course, the one thing i don't have! so nasayang ang precious time ko.. at ang boses nila.. =)
• i'm afraid to use the cubicles in their comfort rooms- when i was a little younger.. hindi talaga ako pumapasok sa mga public CRs.. maarte ako eh.haha ayos lang sa akin kahit magka-UTI ako.. pipigilin ko any call of nature basta wag lang ako pumasok sa mga public restrooms. i don't know kung katamaran ba un o kaartehan. maybe both!haha pero improving na ako ngaun.. pumapasok na ko sa loob ng CR para magsalamin at magretouch.. but i can only pee sa CR ng mga sinehan.. i don't know what's the explanation...pero magastos..grabe!=)
• i'm afraid to escalators - one of my stupidity..hehe ewan ko ba.. hindi ako makasakay at makababa sa esalator na hindi tumitingin sa bawat steps. coz i have this feeling na when i ride through them.. feeling ko ba maiipit ung mga paa ko and worst.. mahuhulog ako! tanga talaga!haha
• i'm afraid to elecronic sensors- eto ung pag lumalabas ka ng store magbee-beep pag may ninenok ka! i've notice kanina when i was about to go out sa powerbooks.. i'm holding my breath kasi feeling ko tutunog yun.. and God knows what will happen to me pag napagbintangan akong nagsho-shoplift..pero really, i didn't steal anything.. paranoid lang talaga ako!haha i do admit i have my fair share of kalokohan.. way back.. (once upon a time..) at wala nmn nakahuli sa akin at nagbagong buhay na ako.. promise!=) basta lang.. hindi lang ako makahinga pag dumadaan ako sa mga ganun..hehe

i'm thinking kung my nakalimutan pa akong 'scary things' pag nasa malls ako.. but for now yan muna..

i know i'm being stupid feeling all of this lalo na sa malls na parang 2nd home ko na!haha pero ganun yata talaga.. admit it or not.. may katangahan taung lahat paminsan minsan.. and as for me.. i will always be stupid .. and a pretty stupid fo a record! naks!haha at pag my nagawa akong another stupidity..i just laugh at myself.. anyway.. i'm the only one who knew.. na 'ooops.. i did it agai!n!' haha

thief for a day

i never taught na mahirap pala ang trabaho ng mga akyat bahay gang.. at hindi nila ako tatanggapin dahil ang bagal kong magbukas ng sirang door knob..haha
i assumed that this was just an ordinary day until ava got stuck up sa banyo namin at akala namin we will wait for a couple of hours para mabuksan ung pinto dahil unfortunately si anjo (her brother) lang ang nakakabukas nun! luckily(?) si gab (na isa pang housemate sa bahay ni kuya) ay nakulong din the other day at napanood ko kung pano binuksan ni anjo ang pinto.. but it never occured to me that i will be able to try that trick dahil sa palagay ko.. hindi ko un kayang gawin. but since we have no choice dahil papasok ako kanina at hindi ko naman pwedeng iwan si ava na nakakulong sa banyo.. ngtry na din ako.. at kahit matagal at maingay ang pagbubukas ko ng pinto.. at least we made it! but unfortunately for me i'm late for work (anyway, what's new?)hahaha

conclusion

don't under estimate the thieves.. because it really need a special talent na makapagnakaw within 3 minutes na walang nakakakita at nakakarinig..haha

and

practice makes perfect!hahaha

mood swing

i sometimes wonder just how many people had the chance to do whatever they like or had an interest doing such things they need to do?

and unfortunately I AM NOT ONE OF THEM!

since i enter college and took up engineering.. that's when i know.. i'm destined to be doomed! well (unfortunately again) i finished it on time amidst all the tears and fears and the cheating and cutting classes.. bonus pa.. i have a license! na up to this time i still can't believe it na meron nga talaga ako.. na para bang everything is falling into their right places.. but actually.. they're not! i have this feeling that i don't really belong here.. dahil hangang ngaun hindi ko pa din naapreaciate kung anu ba magagawa ng frequency and bandwidth sa buhay ko.. (well except of course na my sahod ako every fifteen days because of them..haha) but really i just don't get it!

i just want to be a cashier.. (haha.. stupid dreams!) anyway.. that's what i like.. a job na may kinalaman sa pera at pagkakaperahan.. (ok.. mukha na akong pera! so what?haha) at least makakarelate ako... and i will absolutely know kung ano ba magagawa ng pera sa buhay ko..=)
o kaya naman taga tupi ng towels ( sa another country syempre).. at least i won't be here in front of computer at 4:00 am researching anything about broadcasting.

ok..ok.. i can't do anything about all this things right now.. i'm an engineer (and not some kind of a cashier) and i have a job far from what i really like most.. but eventually.. and in fairness naman.. my job was -err - is far from being a complicated one.. except of course to some technical part.. and to some awkward moment na i look stupid in front of my boss..hehe i'm having a second tought.. and i admit i'm pretty stupid most of the times and especially for thinking that i had the worst job ever.. because really.. IT'S NOT! i just hope that i will come to my senses SOON! and i won't do anything that i will regret... err.. i really hope so.. =)